Can't sleep....

IN-SOM-NI-A
This is what I have!!!

It is a noun, but more importantly it is the inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.

As of 4:30 am this morning, I confirmed with myself that I do, in fact have insominia. After tossing and turning in my bed for 4.5 hours I realized that my eyes were wide open and I was not going back to sleep! Which did not conjure up good thoughts when thinking about how I would be so tired when my alarm went off or how I wouldn't be able to keep my eyes open during my copious meetings today or how I would likely end up trying to hold my eye lids open with toothpicks as I drive home from work, because of course, my body will choose this time to get sleepy...when I am sitting in rush hour traffic!

You see, I have come to the conclusion that I am an insomniac, not from this one experience, oh no, but from several experiences! In fact, the night before I left Colorado after Christmas...I maybe got one hour of sleep. And within the last three nights...each night I have woken up right around 12:30 - 1:00 am and have struggled will falling back into a dream laden slumber! Instead I lay awake thinking about all of the things I should do, want to do, need to, the fact that I should just get up and read or maybe watch tv. I think about the new tattoo I am getting and about the blog that I am going to write when I do get it. I think about my to do list--the absolute worst thing to think about when you can't sleep because you keep adding things to it, but you are too lazy to actually get out of bed and write things down so if you actually do fall asleep...you will forget everything you just thought of that you needed to do!!!! SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!

And of course...I was tossing and turning to the point that I infected Motley with my INSOMNIA!!! Poor baby...because he was dead asleep...pug snoring and all. And then he was wide awake, giving himself a bath and then getting water and then chewing his bone. Not good.

So you may ask, why doesn't this crazy girl just take some Tylenol PM and be done with it! Well for those of you that know me (which I think is all of you that are reading this rant) you will know that I am too many drugs already to be taking sleepy meds just willy-nilly!!! DAMNIT! Because I would!

So that's that...I think I might be a little irritable...does the whole "warm milk" thing really work???

Sweet dreams!